i have finally freed myself from this anguish. this disturbance i get. most of them are out of my system. i have to fight just a little longer for all of it to be gone. i thank my lucky stars i am what i am today. i feel like a free man. i feel a big burden lifted off my chest. all thanks to a 21 year old singaporean. she helped me through my hard times, she loved me so dearly as a friend when i was so down, she was there for me whenever i was down, i love her strength for support me even though her problems are much worse than mine. she always told me that a problem is a problem, we cant differentiate it even if we want to. she told me alot of things.
lately, i have been filling up my time with all the little things to do. i helped out in college, finding a new job, most probably the nearest starbucks, making dessert and dinner for the gang, and so on. one thing im not so keen on is my love life. yes, my love life. i'd rather not go into a relationship now, knowing that it would only make neither party happy. im just too afraid of the outcome of it. i know, everyone would say that you cant predict what would come and just trust. trust. trust has been the hardest thing for me since my breakup. how could i trust another human being when the person i loved so dearly is untrustable? its just hard for me to live with that fact. i took the wrong path and now im learning to deal with it. it just takes alot of time to get over things like this.
i made cream caramel for everyone last night. they enjoyed it. sarah and sy helped. a simple and easy dessert anyone can make. so yeah. sy told me that i should cook at home more often. so yeah, cooking on mondays, wednesdays and fridays. then pastries will be days when im free or whenever anyone feels like eating desserts. i do have an ice cream book!! =)
so yeah. lifes been doing me good. =)
i have gone back to my eating habit and sy is surprised. hahaha he was like, "you could really eat yesterday". hahaha i didnt even realize i ate so much. getting my weight back to its normal state. maybe a little bigger like 70-75 kg and then tone it up. yeahhh baby!! =P
so yeah ... im almost getting over everything. i love my freedom.
one thing that makes me more and more amazed about you is the power of your endless support for me. thank you. D.
rick.
lately, i have been filling up my time with all the little things to do. i helped out in college, finding a new job, most probably the nearest starbucks, making dessert and dinner for the gang, and so on. one thing im not so keen on is my love life. yes, my love life. i'd rather not go into a relationship now, knowing that it would only make neither party happy. im just too afraid of the outcome of it. i know, everyone would say that you cant predict what would come and just trust. trust. trust has been the hardest thing for me since my breakup. how could i trust another human being when the person i loved so dearly is untrustable? its just hard for me to live with that fact. i took the wrong path and now im learning to deal with it. it just takes alot of time to get over things like this.
i made cream caramel for everyone last night. they enjoyed it. sarah and sy helped. a simple and easy dessert anyone can make. so yeah. sy told me that i should cook at home more often. so yeah, cooking on mondays, wednesdays and fridays. then pastries will be days when im free or whenever anyone feels like eating desserts. i do have an ice cream book!! =)
so yeah. lifes been doing me good. =)
i have gone back to my eating habit and sy is surprised. hahaha he was like, "you could really eat yesterday". hahaha i didnt even realize i ate so much. getting my weight back to its normal state. maybe a little bigger like 70-75 kg and then tone it up. yeahhh baby!! =P
so yeah ... im almost getting over everything. i love my freedom.
one thing that makes me more and more amazed about you is the power of your endless support for me. thank you. D.
rick.
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